The Future......

I'm in class right now and I DO NOT want to be her, so to pass the time I am resorting to my blog. It's been a few days since I last wrote and sadly not much has happened since then.
Lately though I've thought a lot about my future and what I want to happen. I've decided that if I want things to happen I need to be the one to make them happen. One thing that has weighed heavily on my mind the last little while is the opportunity to go to Chile for 5 months and study Spanish. As most of you know I served my mission there, but only served for 6 months because of health problems. When I found this program something inside of me felt good about it, but as always fear soon followed and I started weighing the pros and cons. When I get down to the nitty gritty I have nothing holding me back from having a wonderful experience. I'm not married, no prospects just a wide open future waiting to be written! So what do I do? The spontaneous, adventurous, travel-loving side of me says "What the heck are you waiting for!?!? Jump at this opportunity!! GO AND MAKE YOUR FUTURE HAPPEN! Don't look back and have the time of your life!!" but the fearful, let's make plans and never follow through with them side of me that usually always wins says "WOAH, 5 months away from your family and it's during FOOTBALL season!! What about money? Or the money you'd be saving if you didn't go? What about a job when you get home? Think of all the birthday's, family dinners, parties you'd miss!!" It is kind of scary. One of the things I love most about living so close to home is the fact that if I am having a stressful day I can drive 20 minutes and be in the comfort of home or if I don't feel like the drive Barnes and Noble (oh how I love that place!!). It's true what they say (or maybe it's just what I say) that the longer you're in a comfort zone the harder it is to step foot outside of it. I definitely have that problem. One thing I am certain of is I do want to learn more Spanish and really the only way to become fluent in a language is to be immersed in it and I know I wouldn't regret it if I did go.
So to sum it all up the jury is still out on that decision, but the more I talk to my friends in Chile the more desire I have to go! I love that country. And I would love to have the opportunity to go back and visit my mission and the people I met and taught. It was honestly the best time of my life and I think about it every day!! And the traveling....OH THE TRAVELING!! Such a dream of mine.
So i guess here's to the future.......whatever i decide it may bring for me!